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Especially when your best friend comes over for sleepovers and you spend the night touching her body and kissing her neck.
I didn’t know what being gay or queer was back then, but I knew that I loved her as much as I loved the cute guy in my youth group. All those phrases drilled into my head from a young age haunted me: “you’re dirty,” “you’re impure,” “no man will want you now,” “you’re damaged,” “you’re a slut.” Purity culture isn’t just some cutesy romantic ideal that protects you from pain.
I wanted so desperately to be loved, so I threw myself into following all the rules and suppressing my sexual urges. Unfortunately, my sex drive is a powerful thing, and I finally broke down and had “penis in vagina” sex for the first time with a guy I’d been dating for a month. After a year of us being great platonic friends and both of us being in therapy, we started dating. I’m talking about breaking down sobbing and screaming while he was still inside me. He would always hold me and tell me it was gonna be ok, that I was safe. Two years into my relationship with my boyfriend, I came to him because I realized I wanted a girlfriend too. It wasn’t easy, I still had a lot of emotional baggage to cope with and he had to deal with the insecurity of his partner wanting to be with other people while still being with him.
I’m aware of the fact that a twenty-three-year-old is going to say some laughably naïve things about relationships, and I think that Joshua might be aware of that, too.
Purity culture is not just “weird.” It is an oppressive system. Here’s where you can find the entire series, which is in ten parts.
Each post covers one or two chapters and makes the connection between the principles Joshua advocated for and the consequences those principles have had on Christian culture.
I turned into a queer polyamorous kinky liberal feminist stripper that has a lot of sex with a lot of different people. I’m very grateful that I had the privilege of being able to work through the shit that Joshua Harris piled on me, because I know that there are thousands of people that still hate themselves due to his books.
And to those people, I just want to say that I’m sorry the church fucked you up like this.
Cut to when I was a teenager and learning how to masturbate.